So, I’ve noticed something.
When I was really overweight, I sort of stopped giving a shit how I looked. Even in HS I’d try and put on a little makeup or something (even though I suck at it and it doesn’t really suit me), dress nice-ish.. I stopped caring after I gained all that weight. I wasn’t dirty, but I was unkempt.
This is going to make me sound like a gross mess before (well, I sort of was), but now I actually take the time to shave my legs, pluck my eyebrows, take better care of my teeth, maintain my nails and moisturize my hands/feet and such.. I’m a little more interested in clothing again..
As a girl who has spent almost her entire life in jeans, tshirts and sports bras, this is a little overwhelming.
I mean, I’m 23. That’s not old, persay, but god knows I feel like I’m late jumping on this wagon.
Oh well. Maybe now I can work on developing myself outwardly instead of working so much on hiding my fat in boring clothes.
Sorry for posting ANOTHER face comparison, but… yeah. I can’t help but feel excited over this change.
I am admittedly a little frustrated that I’m not at a stage where I’m comfortable enough to wear proper shorts yet.
I have my baggy dude shorts, sure, but those fuckers aren’t exactly hot weather wear (thick material, very heavy.)
And then looking at shorts, I realize all the ones I like have like 2 to 3 1/2 inch inseams and it’s just.. no. My fat legs could definitely not rock that sort of shit right now.
That’s one of my goals, y’know?
To wear shit like this:
And not have my thighs chaffing and having rolls or loose skin pouring over the sides. I don’t want to be the ‘fat chick in short shorts’.
I just want to dress comfortably in all weather and not fucking tug at my clothes and have things bunch up or whatever.
Being overweight has made me form a love hate relationship with the seasons. I just hope this nightmare is over come next summer.
Measurement Sunday
Bust - 37 (No change)
Chest - 33.5 (No change)
Waist - 31.5 (-.5)
Stomach - 37 (-1)
Hips - 41 (No change)
Thighs - 22 (-.5)
Weight - 189.9 (-1.3 since last week)
Also, a note on support.
Basically, when Zach’s mom goes shopping lately, she’ll call me and ask if I can have (x) food. She may forget things sometimes (like that I shouldn’t have potatos), but I know she’s looking out for me, and I’m incredibly thankful for that.
Of wedding outfits and Goal Clothes
So, thanks to a very generous friend, I was able to get some quality clothes that I’ve been oggling at (A&F), as well as a dress (American Eagle) and some jewelry for me to wear to my mom’s wedding.
I bought the dress in a large because I figured it’s much easier to size a dress down than it is to add fabric to make it fit, and even then I still fit it fairly well! My upper half fits it really well in fact, but my bottom half and my stomach need a little bit of work before it’ll look really good.
The Abercrombie pieces (a large jacket, a large long sleeve, two medium tank tops and two large plaid button ups) are my fall goal clothes! The arms are a little snug for me right now on the sleeved shirts and jacket, and while the medium tank tops fit, I’d be kidding myself if I said they were flattering ;) It’s all good though, they’re not meant to be summer clothes anyway! I think the best part was that I expected everything to be un-breathably tight, and that really wasn’t the case, so I’m content.
One of the plaid shirts with one of the tank tops underneath for good measure. I did this while very bloated and not feeling very good, but I don’t think I look too shabby. The other plaid shirt is in the back, and I ended up loving them far more than I expected! I look forward to fitting them properly in the fall/winter. :)
So uh, I kind of like how my legs are looking lately.
I haven’t taken a picture of them in ages. I could very clearly feel them firming up and getting less squishy, but I haven’t actually seen them. I was so sure my camera was lying to me, I had to put my hand in the second image just to make sure haha… Sorry I don’t have anything to compare it to. You’ll have to trust me on this.
They aren’t tiny legs, but they’re so much better than what they were, oh my goodness.
Except when I stand up. For some reason then they look kind of awful. Maybe it’s just the indoors lighting I’m used to seeing them in, I don’t know. I’m having a ‘hot weather clothes’ dilemma over it. I don’t feel like I have the (standing) legs for short-ish shorts…
But yeah. I mainly wanted to share this for the feel-good factor, and so I have something to look back on down the road.
:D
Simply put, I hit 189 this morning.
Aww yissss…~ I didn’t expect to see that in a while.
*does a little dance*
Sunday Meaurements
Wherein I laugh at the ridiculous amount of weight I’ve lost so far since ‘shark week’ came.
Bust - 37 (-.5)
Chest - 33.5 (No change)
Waist - 32 (-.5)
Stomach - 38 (No change)
Hips - 41 (-.5)
Thighs - 22.5 (-.5)
Weight - 191.2 (-6.8 since when I last reported, but I hit 199.8 during my stall so in essence I lost pretty much 9lbs.)
Yeah. I lost a FUCK TON of water weight. My body was holding on to that shit relentlessly for 3 whole weeks of shitty PMS.
Now back to my regularly schedule program I suppose :P
I fibbed.
So, I did try to do no weigh May, and so far I didn’t comply to it at all haha.
I didn’t label my weight because I didn’t feel the need to, not to mention I utterly stalled. In fact, I gained weight (1-2lbs).
This went on for about 3 weeks. My hormones were super fucking confused, and I was retaining water (PMS) like crazy. TMI: My period was a couple weeks late because of my weight loss and new diet.
I kept weighing because, well. I love information.
And it’s my love of information that proves this point to me:
~MEASURE YOURSELF.~
I was sitting between 198-199 for weeks there, and I was STILL LOSING INCHES.
And now my stall has broken. I hit 195 this morning, which makes me 30lbs down total so far.
So do yourself a favor and buy a fucking flexible measuring tape, please. The scale does not tell you everything.
